Saturday, October 19, 2019

Emotional support... [006]

Nothing new, just went to work. Prepared for the presentation on Monday and the office hours ended.

Went home and bought 50% off sushi rolls for dinner.

Arrived home then K asked me if can go home. Arrive home before the results comes out. Papa needs emotional support. The result will be out next week.

In my mind, now i'm sure this is serious. There's a lot going on in my mind. how to apply leave? where to get money for the plane ticket? how will be the future?

Right now, Mi and I are checking my leave if I can go home.

Just got a message. Mama is crying. K said, she is not crying in front of Papa. She doesn't want to show any sign of weakness. and I agree.

I just booked a plane ticket. I will be going home this Tuesday.

Friday, October 18, 2019

1L fluid... [005]

Morning came.

Woke up and I remembered going to the Embassy to get my new passport. Hurried taking a bath, preparing and went on.

On my way, i tried to wake up Mi for their meeting for Taba's Halloween party. She didn't go; rather, she can't go as Taba is still not well.

As for Ahya, he is having an exam week (My eldest son). He said he did good. But let's see.

There's a long way going to the Embassy and while going there, K told us that there was fluid extracted from Papa. almost a liter and there are few left that can be removed by antibiotics.




Thursday, October 17, 2019

Mi visits papa... [004]

This morning when i woke up, I read the message telling me that my youngest kid, Taba, has fever and vomiting.

Then, i remember, last night she told me Taba did eat a lot. Taba likes eating.

So i told her, to get him to doctor to be examined.

Came afternoon, Mi, taba and Mama Na went to doctor which is in the same hospital as Papa.

She told me, Taba is fine, might  just because of over-eating. Doc also told her not give him any food if he will vomit it out again. so pedialite was given to re hydrate him.

Taba and Mama Na then went home so he can rest.

Mi went on to visit papa. She told me papa seems fine as he now do casual talks.

Also, today is the day he got tested. he waiting for hours just to be tested. 9AM then went on to be 12PM.

Papa told Mi that the needles hurt.


Wednesday, October 16, 2019

Confinement day... [003]

Morning starts.

Tired from last night cleaning the water leak. The leak is between my flatmate and my room. Smells like wet market fish section.

Today, i'm supposed to go to the Embassy to collect my new passport which has 10 years validity. But i thought to myself, the AC cleaner will be arriving today as well. I might miss them; chance to fix the leak problem.

Cleaner came, leak fixed.

Took a bath, went to Pinoy store for my lunch at 5:00PM.

I was then told, Papa will be confined in CGH. Dr. Dy was supposed to at him backed-out as she is leaving the country soon. They waited almost half a day to be admitted (Papa, Mama and A).

Now, they are waiting for the room. I wished this will be faster so Papa can rest.

Same goes with Mama who for 2 days straight going out and doing this. If only... nevermind.


Just a back photo of him going to Toilet.

Monday, October 14, 2019

Tita M calls... [002]

The day started with me early morning going out of bed to start preparing to go to work. Usual feeling, tired and sleepy.

Went to toilet and started to bathe. Then from the messenger I received a notification; from Tita M, asking if she can call. I told her, later in the middle of my shower.

In my mind, what is her purpose for the call? is it to gauge if I'm okay? or perharps guilty that thinking she might be slightly responsible for it? Whatever the case, i decided to talk to her.

Finished preping up, started going to the train station and my commute will commence. "this train will alight at Jurong East platform A" announcement from the train management.

I hop in to the MRT and told Tita M that we are okay to talk.

It went okay. More on to the normal "kamustahan". In the end, i even told her feel free to call me if she just needs someone to talk to.

In my mind, when faced with tradegy, your truce face will show. Not sure if positive or negative, but I appreciate the call.

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Later in the afternoon, Mi gave a screenshot where a friend of achi read the findings. He is a TB USAID. He said it could be cancer and at least stage 3. Shocked.

Sunday, October 13, 2019

So the news came... [001]

While I am writing this, i still don't know what to feel.

My brother messaged me saying "it is almost confirmed". I asked what. He said, "the mass almost confirmed to be cancerous."

My father, Papa.

We are now just waiting for the biopsy to really confirm that the mass is either benign or malignant. Tita N was updated, Mi was updated.

Next move after the confirmation is operation (if still can). If not, radiation/chemo.

We really don't know what the future holds. People just hope/pray for the better. I hope for the best. I really hope for the best